~there is no where i can really say what i'm thinking~

I am going to be very vague. I was just talking with a friend on how we hate vagueness and here I am doing what I hate. I’d apologize but this is my space and I have to vent. I can't truly express myself on any blog, besides in a personal journal maybe.

I am just so sick of drama surrounding my life. I am content. I get along with everyone. I’m a positive person. I see the glass half full. I hate drama so I try not to cause any yet somehow it's always there caused by others. Most of the time I'm not even involved but I still get dragged down. I spent a good portion of my evening crying for a very important person in my life. I'm crying now.

I feel as though I am caught in the middle of a situation and I don't know the right thing to do. I want to get along with each side but there is no middle ground. I know who I agree with but it doesn’t make it any easier.

~perfect fall day for yard work~

I spent the majority of the day yesterday cleaning out a huge overgrown area by our shed in the backyard.

Last fall our neighbors cut out bushes and offered us the kindling. Without seeing the pile Lance said we would take it all. Who knew it was going to be so much??!!! Oh my goodness, it was a massive pile of 4 foot long branches they stacked next to the fence. Well we didn’t end up using it due to the cold weather. (It snowed the beginning of October. Way too early.) So the pile sat there all winter long and this spring Lance moved it to revive the huge circle of dead grass it had sat on for half of the year. He threw it all by the shed where there was already weeds growing waist high or higher. (I had weeded that area the spring before so I was bummed it all was for nothing. Boo weeds!)

I had tried to take care of the branches by having a few bonfires this summer but larger wood logs were used instead without my knowledge. I have never done a fire myself and wasn’t in charge of it but assumed it was being used up. Not so.

I have plans for the overgrown area and all those dang branches were in my way so I had Lance start a fire and I carried over all of the branches and broke them into small pieces. He manned the fire for a while but then went inside so I took over. I think I did a good job keeping it going considering I’ve never done it before. I think I’ve always been scared. Not anymore! I got about half of the pile burned but I ran out of room in our bonfire pit! It was just way too full of ashes to continue. I had to put my burning party on hold.

Here is the remaining half, yeah that’s only half. I carried twice this across the backyard. My arms are pretty scratched up.



I have this Tuesday through next Tuesday off of work so I am determined to get that pile gone this week! Please don’t rain! I need dry wood!

I weeded once I moved all the branches and does it ever look different. I really should have taken a before picture.

Here’s after weeding. Just imagine this area full of waist high weeds and all those branches! (I didn’t get all the low weeds yet.)



I removed two trees that were about 8 feet tall that had started growing on their own this year. I would have loved to have kept them but their roots were growing under the fence and there is no way that would be a good thing down the road. I also trimmed all the trees in our backyard so there are no longer any low branches to smack into. I was weedwacking along the fence line and under the playset in the dark. Haha. I had to go inside cause I couldn’t see anymore.

And I also managed to do 4 loads of laundry! I took a bath to try to eliminate the aches that were starting. That’s a lot of physical work for someone as lazy as I am. Haha.

I hope to start landscaping the area this week. Obviously I can’t purchase many plants anymore but I’ll get some of it done and finish come spring. I can’t wait!